Suicide Attempt (Obviously, this was wrote after the fact)

I tried to commit suicide. Honestly, I didn’t really want to die when I decided to swallow every pill in my apartment, but I also knew that I wasn’t prepared to continue living the way I was. Despite my best intentions I had returned right back to the manipulative, lying addict who would do anything to get his next fix.

I had gone and applied for another credit card, knowing full well that I would be unable to pay it back and maxed it through cash withdrawals. I had taken advantage of my parent’s generosity and made unwarranted purchases on their AmEx. I owed serious money to a drug dealer from fronts. I did everything and anything I could because somewhere inside me a voice was telling I no longer mattered and that anything I had accomplished was meaningless.

I changed my mind within 15 minutes after, calling up my friend to get the dog and the EMS to come get me. I was then taken to Toronto Western Hospital where I spent the remainder of that Thursday evening drinking a charcoal shake instead of having my stomach pumped, being monitored by concerned doctors and nurses, before finally being advised I was being held under a Form One for the next 72 hours and transferred to the PESU (Psychiatric Emergency Services Unit).

I stayed in PESU for a week, before being transferred to the PISU (Psychiatric Intake Service Unit) at Toronto General Hospital, where I stayed for another week and a half having my medications adjusted, my general physical and mental health, while plans were made for me to continue my care with both the Community Mental Health Support Services and the Community Addictions Support Services Units, all under the umbrella of the University Health Network to ensure that all involved in my care stay in the loop.

I just want to thank all the UHN staff for their help and support, as well as the love from my family and friends. I’m on the mend. It’s going to be a slow process, trying to work through all the pain and suffering and get to the root of all that’s been dragging me down time and time again, but it’s been a long time coming.

Supes VS Batdude

Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice
Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice (2016)
Fearing the actions of a god-like Super Hero left unchecked, Gothan City’s own formidable, forceful vigilante takes on Metropolis’s most revered, modern-day savior, while the world wrestles with what sort of hero it really needs.… More

Directed By: Zack Snyder
Rated: PG-13
Running Time: 2 hr. 31 min.
Genre: Action & Adventure, Science Fiction & Fantasy
Release Date: March 23, 2016

I’m going to be very honest. Despite the rampant criticisms by alleged “film critics”, perhaps paid off by Disney, this movie was definitely not as shaky as they professed. What’s even more surprising are the Flixster user score versus the number of negative reviews that are placed up front for everyone to see, especially by a website owned by Warner Bros.

Ben Afleck did an excellent job taking on the role of Bruce Wayne/Batman and it should be interesting to see what he offers in the upcoming solo movie. Henry Cavill, despite the crappy hair job, is still proving to be a fantastic Superman. Even Doomsday was well executed.

Probably the only genuinely muddled scene was the dream sequence Bruce Wayne has, with the Omega symbol easter egg accompanied by parademons, all hinting towards the eventual appearance of Darkseid with an ominous warning by what could be one of Jack Kirby’s New Gods. The ending too had a few scenes that were badly sequenced, but so what?

Now, if i were to crap over anything it was Jesse Eisenberg’s portrayal of Lex Luthor. Having Luthor come off as socially inept and insane was BS. Luthor first and foremost has always been a brilliant businessman with a hate on for aliens. I don’t blame Eisenberg for the role he was cast however. That mistake lies directly on Zack Snyder and whatever deviant he hired as screenwriter.

Still, much of this movie should be considered a tremendous success for DC and I look forward to the Justice League movies, providing Disney and Marvel fan babies can restrain themselves from trashing the movies long before they come out.