Move on

A wise man once sat in the audience and cracked a joke – all of them
laughed like crazy.

After a moment he cracked the same joke again & a little less people
laughed this time…

He cracked the same one again & no one laughed !!!
Then he smiled and said ”when you can’t laugh on the same joke again & again then why do you keep crying over the same thing over & over  again”

 FORGET the past and MOVE ON

Honest to God

This post was written by Mel Lawrenz

[This post is in a weekly devotional series called Everything New. Sign up here if you’re interested.]

The prophet Isaiah put it this way: “For our offenses are many in your sight, and our sins testify against us. Our offenses are ever with us, and we acknowledge our iniquities: rebellion and treachery against the LORD, turning our backs on God, fomenting oppression and revolt, uttering lies our hearts have conceived” (Isaiah 59:12-13).

Notice the key to the lock here: acknowledge.

In one breath, the prophet lays out a glossary of sin (offense, iniquity, rebellion, treachery, oppression, revolt, lies), and he establishes that we sin in thought (what the heart conceives), word (lies), and deed (all the rest). “Thought, word, and deed” is a way of talking about the whole of our lives. It is a way of saying, “God, I need my whole life to be exposed to your healing touch. I need to be honest about my transgressions that are overt acts, those that are careless words, and those that are imaginings which spring from secret motives.”

We can be thankful that sin, in its essence, is the negation of what is good. It is the “-less” or the “un-” of the created order: lovelessness, lawlessness, godlessness, unbelief, thanklessness, disobedience, faithlessness–in other words, darkness. Why be thankful about that? Because sin has no existence in and of itself. Go into a dark room, turn on a light, and the darkness disappears. “The darkness is passing and the true light is already shining” (1 John 2:8).

I’ve met many people who feel utterly hopeless about their faults and transgressions. They feel terrible that they keep disappointing God, and they wonder whether anything will ever be different. And this is key: they view their mistakes as an essential part of who they are rather than a good gone wrong.

Sin must be taken seriously. This disconnect from God is the universal condition of the human race, as Scripture makes abundantly clear: “There is no one who does not sin” (1 Kings 8:46); “No one living is righteous before you” (Psalm 143:2); “Who can say, ‘I have kept my heart pure; I am clean and without sin’?” (Proverbs 20:9); “the whole world is a prisoner of sin” (Galatians 3:22); “We all stumble in many ways. If anyone is never at fault in what he says, he is a perfect man, able to keep his whole body in check” (James 3:2); “If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us” (1 John 1:8).

But, on the other hand, we must keep remembering that mankind was made “in the image of God.” Good. More than that, very good.

We must be honest about our failings and our sins–otherwise we will never find forgiveness and healing. But no one should ever think his or her essential identity is darkness. Christ is the light, and he wants to shine in our lives. [More on that, next time.]

What do you think?

What do I think? I’m working my way, slowly these days, through the Twelve Steps of A.A, which essentially is a guide towards a better life, and this post today really helped clarify what it is I’m trying to do with Step 4,

“Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.”

It is only by taking a really hard look at myself, and bringing forth every defect of character that I possess, that I can make lasting changes to improve myself and the way I life my life.

Week of April 4-10

Thanks to your friendly reminder, I’m posting this now to let all interested parties know what’s been going on in my life this past week.

Still going to meetings on a daily basis, whether they be Aftercare, For Life or A.A.

I did skip out on my For Life group this week however. I was just tired and not in the mood after completing a number of chores that morning.

Had one unfriendly encounter with someone asking for change the past weekend, but after some reflection came to the understanding that the situation could have been handled much better had I treated the man as a person, with all the respect that entails, rather than as just a crack head asking for money for his next fix. I had hoped that I would be able to apologize to him, had I seen him around my building again, but have been unable to carry out my intentions as of yet. Still, it’s something to learn from and I hope that another, similar situation crop up, so that I can meet it in a more fitting manner.

Doctor Casola had good news/bad news for me on Friday, regarding my Section 8 application to the Ministry of Health regarding my financial coverage for Strattera.

Good news was that they had approved the medications for another patient of the doctor. Bad news was that it wasn’t mine. They did however request further information regarding my application, so that means it hasn’t been rejected. Dr. Casola did tell me though that should my request be rejected, he would NOT prescribe me any other medications to curb my ADHD, as all others are stimulant based. Some old behaviours did flair up at this moment, and I told him although I accepted his personal reasons, I would however go seek some form of ADHD treatment from another doctor should that be the case, and then ranted on about the drug companies for a couple more minutes. I did rally though, and reminded myself that the application was still moving forward, and had not been rejected yet, so why was I getting all negative.? Glass half full thinking instead of half empty. Dr. Casola also felt that writing a personal letter to the department overseeing my quest couldn’t hurt any, so I drafted one up this past Friday to be submitted along with the Ministry’s request for further information on my case.

Got my application for volunteering at the Toronto Harbour Light Ministries from Ann, and I’ll get it filled out for this coming week.

Speaking of service, I was up to my elbows in dish water last night at a Gratitude Dinner for 87 guests at St. Andrew’s Anglican Church on Bloor Street. Very tiring and also very stimulating at the same time. I was pleased to have overcome any anxiety that had been burning at the back of my mind.

There. That’s about all the details I can summon up at this moment. Hope all is well with you and God Bless.

Christopher King
Live. Learn. Laugh.

Home from the Harbour Light

Just so that you folks are kept in the know, I’m away at the moment from the Salvation Army’s Harbour Light Centre and back home at my apartment. There were some “complications” and I left, but I’m currently waiting for a phone call sometime after January 5th 2011 to see when I can return and finish up the Relapse Prevention Therapy part of the addictions program.

I’ll keep y’all posted when I know more.

Oh, and in case I don’t speak to you prior, Have a Happy New Year!!!

Faith & Hope

Acts 4:11 “The stone that you builders rejected has now become the cornerstone.”

The son of a former multi-millionaire now in jail for crimes relating to a massive Ponzi scam committed suicide recently. He had lost faith in his father, capitalism, justice and the love of his wife and child.

This happens far too often in society. We place fare too much importance on man made concepts, whether it be marriage, the stock market or governments. But marriages do dissolve in divorce, stock markets crash and governments can change with a single ballot.

As addicts, by the time we reach out for help and admit that we are powerless over drugs and that our lives are unmanageable, we have pretty much lost everything that can possibly matter. Family, friends, money, homes, health and self-respect.

So we come in from the cold, get some warm food in our stomachs, a real bed to finally sleep on, and all of  sudden we’re told that if we want to get become, and I mean really and truly better, we are going to have to surrender and give ourselves over to a a loving and caring God as we know him, and we FREAK!!!

Some addicts upon hearing this revelation, take off into the night and return to their old habits and old ways of thinking. The idea of turning themselves over to this concept of God to save them scares them far more than dying on the streets some day alone.

Other addicts are left scratching their heads, unwilling or unable to overcome preconceived notions regarding the possibility of an Almighty Being existing or not, and what in fact this might mean to them personally. These addicts, thinking they’ve recovered, will eventually leave their sanctuaries and return to the real world, armed to the teeth with all sorts of tools and manuals that will purportedly help them in staying sober. Of these good people sadly most will fail as well.

The last group of addicts will take a good look at themselves and ask “What have we got to lose by surrendering and giving ourselves over to this Higher Power?” Nothing actually. Despite some reservations they are now moving along the true path to becoming better. To being truly a part of society instead of just barely surviving on the fringes.

Only through surrender and allowing themselves to be spiritually rewrote, will addicts, no matter what type, be able to restore some sanity to their lives. By believing in a loving and caring God, a Higher Power, or for that Brighter Tomorrow, these people now have a more solid and substantial foundation to build their new lives on which will carry them forward, come what may.

Faith and hope. Age old concepts and yet still holding true today. As long anybody, addicts or otherwise, hold to that belief, that belief that no matter what, God loves them, then we as individuals can overcome any obstacle.

A son of a former multi-millionaire currently in jail on charges related to yet another Ponzi scheme committed suicide the other day. His faith in his father, capitalism, justice and his wife and child weren’t strong enough to help get over his despair. Perhaps if he had remembered that God was there to help if he but asked, this tragedy could have had a different ending.

Hello world!

So, I clicked on Windows Live Spaces today, to be notified that as of January 2011, Windows Live Spaces will be closed. The advice provided by the site was to have all my stuff moved here to WordPress with the exception of all the lists (Books, movies, etc… ) that I’ve worked long and hard on.

Suffice it to say that as I type this, I am not exactly thrilled with the idea, but this is just another thing beyond my control. I am saddened by what has happened, but will attempt to make the best of  things in this new blogging site.